I decided to live with my father for the Summer to try and rekindle my relationship with him, in doing so I also decided to stay for freshman year and see how things went. Freshman year (2018) starts and my first day of orientation I met my boyfriend. My father didn’t like that I had a boyfriend what so ever. He is a very controlling person. I was dating my boyfriend for a few months, and my mom hadn’t met him yet, so she invited my boyfriend up to her house for the weekend of my baby sisters birthday. Since it was my mom’s weekend with me I didn’t think I needed to tell my dad he was coming. Well, somehow my dad had found out and decided when I got back he was going to kick me out. Because of this, I was forced to move back to my moms. My boyfriend and I decided to do long distance once I had moved back. We did long distance for about 2.5 years. It was not very “long distance”, we only lived about 3 hours away from each other. Just since we were only 14-15 when I moved, neither of us could drive so we had to rely on our family to help us make it work. After the 2.5 years of long distance, our relationship was rocky. Yet, we still decided to live in with each other May of 2021. I did everything in my power to graduate early as a Jr. in high school just so I could be with him sooner. We are still currently together to this day. However; I feel as if our relationship is coming to an end and I don’t know what to do about it. We haven’t had the “healthiest” relationship for a long time. In 2023, I had felt like my boyfriend had given up on us. There was no intimacy no connection. It just felt like we were roommates, like there wasn’t anything between us anymore. With ultimate regret, I did end up straying from the relationship. I never fully committed to being intimate with the other guy, however I did talk about meeting up and had sent provocative photos to him. As it happens, my boyfriend found out. We talked it out and decided to stay together and try again. Well now it’s the end of 2025, and I am right back to where I was and how I felt about our relationship in 2023, when I strayed. I feel more lonely in my relationship than ever.