Diagnosed Bi-polar at 19. Brothers murder Halloween 2006. From that tragedy was diagnosed with PTSD in 2009. Diagnosed with BPD in 2014. Now being in my 40s, my perfect combination of meds, which I had been on for almost a decade, suddenly I have to change because of a recent physical side effect that would have ended up being permanent. So now, I'm trying to find my way through the plethora of medications to find a new combination that not only works but is right for me. Support is the padding when you're climbing back up that cliff. They are also my cheerleaders. Battling addiction off and on for 25 years. Currently recovering from cocaine. Been using about a year. Before it's been opiates (4 years addicted, 10years sober), crack (1 year addicted, 16 years sober) , and almost became a alcoholic when I came off opiates. Each time I have overcame the addiction. But then yet again, years later, I have fallen again. Im taking all measures now to stay sober and balance new meds. Im determined to find what is it that is at the core of this cycle. Because now that I'm here a third time. Even after almost 10 years of mostly sobriety, I smoked marijuana and drink here and there. Why is it that I fall prey to another hard drug? That I suddenly just stop taking my meds for no reason? Having support I've learned has helped immensely. Talking to people that understand and can hold me accountable helps me stay on the right path.