I have been married to a narcissist for 17 years. We are coming up on a 5 year divorce. From the love bombing, cruelty, and everything in between, he is the classic narcissist. I am an artist that has been shown internationally. I have been written about in multiple languages including French, Spanish, Chinese, Polish, and Czech. I have been featured in numerous publications such as the Friday Arts and Entertainment section of the Chicago Tribune and the Sunday Living section of The Times-Picayune in New Orleans. I have a 15 x 13 ft. permanent installation of oil paintings and LED lights. I am most well known for creating art with glowing bacteria, bioluminescent bacteria. I am in a 17-year marriage with a narcissist that is ending in an extremely difficult four-year divorce. We are hopefully towards the end of a frustrating settlement agreement. I am an accomplished artist. He spent over a year writing an article about me for a magazine. That was just part of the love bombing. Once he had me, he devalued me. There were cycles of praise and abuse. Of course he was perfect to the public, but cruel at home. At the end I was a shell of person barely able to speak. I do suffer from PTSD and anxiety. Now I also do art much more frequently. I enjoy making art with the iPad, pens, and pastels. I also love going to art galleries and museums.