Hey, I'm Matt, I experienced abandonment early on in life, parents divorced when I was 6, very traumatic for me, my mother constantly told me of my father's bad nature and that he was a bad husband, at 9 my mother got my father's custody revoked to supervised visits at a visitation house, I hated it, asked to stop going there, stop seeing him, he didn't handle it well, that was the last time I saw him, at 11 we moved, I lost all my friends which were hard fought to make, didn't keep in contact, I was abandoned once again, out of my control, I shut down socially, retreated inward, hopeless, along for the ride without agency, making little connection, which felt like luck, never quite fully connecting with anyone, dropped out of highschool and been on Disability since I was 19, 25 my dog had to be put down, it broke me, I picked up a weed addiction, up until 2025 until I started working on it, I'm 32 now, not many friendships, never been in a relationship, which I've desperately wanted since my teenage years, never kissed or had sex, but I have my first full connection I made 2025, a first best friend I feel completely comfortable talking with. I hope to build more connections and start living life.