My name is Marissa, I am sharewelling from Columbus, OH. I am 7 weeks postpartum at the time I’m writing this and boy has it been hard. *TW* I have been in and out of mental hospitals and constantly having suicidal ideation since I had my boy. I am absolutely heartbroken that he has to come into this world on these terms. I feel like a horrible mother for feeling like this and my depressed and anxiety has never been this bad in my life. On a more positive note, my son Noah is my whole world. He is my reason to keep going no matter how hard it gets. I am hoping to get some support from these groups and find better ways to cope.